March 3rd, 2013
J O U R N A L E N T R Y
“The worst decision is not making a choice at all…”
I have found myself many a time at a crossroads of indecisiveness. I have struggled to know which decisions would produce the most effective and beneficial results. I don’t want to operate out of fear and hinder any growth in myself, yet I don’t want to be a “yes” person and operate outside of what I am really supposed to be doing.
There’s that coined phrase, “know thyself” and I find it a vital piece in achieving success in life. Even if I am unsure, I have a God who knows me better than I know myself; My Creator, My Comforter, My Guidance. he shows me things about myself that I have been blind to or even scared to explore. He unlocks those desires deep within me and helps me to achieve them.
The biggest obstacle is…ME!
I know, that I know, that I know, that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” The bible declares it, I believe it, I think!
I have LOST something along my journey, a bit of myself, which is ironic and funny since it’s been a journey of self discovery. How do you lose yourself on a journey of yourself? LOL! Ah, only me…or maybe you too! 🙂 It definitely feels lonely. I am confident in one thing though, if nothing else…
“I am convinced and sure of this very things, that He Who began a good work in (me) will continue until the day of Jesus Christ [right up to the time of His return], developing [that good work] and perfecting and bringing it to full completion in you.”
Follow first, then Lead…
I thought I was a great follower, and in some ways I am, but God is revealing some things to me, some things that are hard to look at, a room of mirrors if you will..scary concept, lots of flaws are visible. Lord can’t you just adjust the lighting to make a beautiful airbrushed, soft focus? To which He replies, “No. Look at yourself.” But He isn’t an awful God making me stare at my lack of muscle tone in the bad lighting. He is so gracious and not only shows me areas HE wants to help me improve and gorw in, He also shows me the beauty in myself. The beauty I can’t see because I think so lowly of myself…YES, I struggle with self-confidence. I can build YOU up with encouraging words all day, but it’s a little more challenging suppressing my own rising emotions at times.
Building confidence does come through closeness with God. The more I speak His word over myself, the more I LIVE what I’m believing.
Until the Next Time,